Propaganda

We are all prisoners. No matter where you go, your freedom is just an illusion.

This weekend I get myself confined to my house, my own house, three complete days of dullness and a beautiful enlightening journey into my other self. The guilt is of some kind of microorganism who saw in me a paradise for its country house. The actual status of the former is: Eradicated after several doses of penicillin

I did it again: I survived three days with myself.

Three whole days of boredom, three whole days of imprisonment, three whole days till resurrection. And I did it: I’m alive.

Today I went out to breath fresh air, to listen to “cumbias” in the bus, to smell sweating people, their scent of rotten corn.

Today I saw real people.

People who eat at the bus because they have no time to live.
People with fear in their eyes. Fear of never return.
Fear of been devoured by the shadows of an alley; to become only blood and sweat.
They wait patiently, they wait a lifetime, they endure an existence of boredom, and dullness, a never ending journey of entrapment.
They are in a journey with no purpose. To keep in motion, to keep breathing that’s their life.

Three days for resurrection I wait. Only took me one day to die.
But sometimes I think that they wait eternity to resurrect, that they die everyday waiting three days to be born again.
And everyday I ask myself: Am I different from them? Or I just don’t want to believe that I might be like them but that I‘ve never wanted to see that the dimness in my eyes, is nothing but the dread of been just blood and shadows. To been engulfed by darkness and never be born again.

“And I asked: Do you remember the night when the sky was dark and the moon shone brilliant bright and the kids pretended to be asleep waiting…”

Prisoner:
(Synonym): captive, hostage, detainee, inmate, jailbird, convict, criminal, imprisoned, incarcerated, confined, caged, locked up, enslaved, old lag, crook, offender, villain, find guilty, send down, jailed, behind bars, put away, inside, in prison, restricted, restrained, felon, robber, lawbreaker, wrongdoer, delinquent, bad character, scoundrel, baddie, rogue, desperado, heavy, nasty piece of work, murderer, thief, burglar, pickpocket, shoplifter, mugger, raider, guilty party, sinner, malefactor, outlaw, aberrant, antisocial, rascal, bandit, gangster, killer, assassin, slayer, slaughterer, executioner, contract killer, intruder, cat-burglar, assailant, thug, attacker, assaulter, aggressor, marauder, troublemaker, mischief maker…

(Antonym): Freedom.
Top 3 for dull days in my ipod:

Prisionero by Los B.L.A. (www.geocities.com/los_bla)

Outsider by A Perfect Circle

Days Before You Came by Placebo